NamaStayAwhile

 I give up.  I surrender to the gods of fat.  After a year and 17 days on the diet with Lehigh Valley Bariatrics I have called it quits.  I lost 25 pounds which calculates out to 0.0655 of a pound a day.  I guess you can really call it losing weight slow.  I feel like I am wasting everyone's time.  The doctor, the dietician and mine.   I feel upset, sad and could cry easily when I think about it.  But, lets face it, I am never going to be able to get knee surgery.  I can't get my weight down far enough.   Yes, we tried wellbutrin for my depression and weight loss and that was a mess. Can't get any of the shots - unless I pay for them - and I can't rationalize putting money out to pay for this medicine when I have bills to pay Next they wanted me to take an appetite supessant - side effects were as bad as wellbutrin  So yeah I give up. Not so much on myself but on losing a great amount of weight -  I will keep try...

 So - the Fat Doctor, as I like to call her gave me medication a few months ago for depression, a side effect is weight loss. (Wellbutrin)   It worked for a bit, but after two months or so, side effects started happening.  First constipation.  For a woman who goes regularly to the bathroom this was discerning at first.  I used stool softeners but it was an on going problem.  Then the tremors started. These were highly uncomfortable.  I would splash coffee and was unable to hold my Sunday Bulletin in church.  But then came the numbness to life in general - I didn't care.  I had more anxiety and I had a meltdown.   It was almost like it supressed all my feelings, including happiness. So I told her and I had to come off gradually - which also made me sick a bit - but I think I am back now.  I feel a little more happier - a little more stable - and hopefully I won't become depressed again. Something about my diet makes me depr...