NamaStayAwhile

Yeah I still stuck.  No answers coming to me - I can do a couple of days but that's it.  And now to top it off I am sad.  An emotion I would love to drown in a gallon of chocolate. Why am I sad - well here go: 1) My foot hurts like a bitch. 2) My son forgot me on Mother's Day - no card, no text - I am not even sure he is alive at this point.  Well, I know he isn't dead, I would think his wife would of call me. 3)  Work is slow and I am afraid I will get laid off. 4) My foot hurts 5) I am still fat as I was when I started this blog. I haven't found peace in my soul, I haven't figured out my personal diet, I just can't seem to put it all together.  I mean I think I look together, and act together - but I am not. So many thing undermine me - the biggest being me.  I can't get the just do it attitude.  I can't seem to say no to salty snacks - they are the apple in the Garden of Eden - I know they are evil but I still give in. Well, i...

Good Day my readers.  Today I share some feelings I am having - they make me feel midnight blue.  I decided to go to the crayola sight and look a hues of blue to determine my mood, LOL; and midnight it was. Midnight blue I need to get a grip on my emotions, they are currently all over the place and if I can't get them under control I can't get my weight, my life and even my work in order. I feel that I need to ground myself, center myself in my space.  I need to heal from the inside out, become whole again.  I am a Reiki Master, and I know how to do these things, but life gets in the way.  It is just like finding time to read the Bible, to pray  and to meditate on God's word.  All these things get kicked away by meetings, problems, commitments and plain old laziness.  Time to stop making excuses. But why do I feel midnight blue.  I feel unloved.  Intimate love.  I have the love of friends and God. I have the love of the ...