NamaStayAwhile

 I have been looking inward, listening to Hero in audible every morning, has me thinking about my path.  Yes, I have a great job and I love what I do, but I do other things; were one of them supposed to be my life's calling.   In school I wanted to go to college and become a minister, but I had no family or church, or even school support in that.  My grandmother nixed all of my ideas and said I had to become a secretary like my Aunt Shirley.  Somehow this was successful.  So, I took business in school, became certified in machines that no longer exist, and started out at a law office. Later I started working in Title Insurance and stayed at one office for 39 years, but unfortunately was laid off and having to pay the bills I found a new job, still in Title Insurance.  Now I am a processor and closer and my many years of experience serve me well in this job Some Sundays I fill in for the Pastor and do Sunday sermons or lessons, as I like to think o...

Good Day my readers.  Today I share some feelings I am having - they make me feel midnight blue.  I decided to go to the crayola sight and look a hues of blue to determine my mood, LOL; and midnight it was. Midnight blue I need to get a grip on my emotions, they are currently all over the place and if I can't get them under control I can't get my weight, my life and even my work in order. I feel that I need to ground myself, center myself in my space.  I need to heal from the inside out, become whole again.  I am a Reiki Master, and I know how to do these things, but life gets in the way.  It is just like finding time to read the Bible, to pray  and to meditate on God's word.  All these things get kicked away by meetings, problems, commitments and plain old laziness.  Time to stop making excuses. But why do I feel midnight blue.  I feel unloved.  Intimate love.  I have the love of friends and God. I have the love of the ...