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It is just me or is the world going to hell in a handbag - or maybe it is just the USA.  I am starting to be anxious about just living from day to day.  Everyday there is something else.  School Shootings, children being separated from their parents. Racial tension - the kind I thought we were over.  I mean what is going on people.  Why are we taking giant steps backwards as a society.  It is just Trump or is it us letting Trump play absolute ruler.  We aren't in a dictatorship yet, but you wouldn't know it.  If this was preschool President Trump would have a lot of time outs.  First, he doesn't play well with others.  He blames Democrats for every problem in the world.  He calls other people names, he doesn't know how to share.  He lies - or at least has his own set of truths.  He whines, especially when he doesn't get his way.  He is defiant especially to anyone with authority, and lastly aggression displayed thro...

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I got a book out of the book cart the other day entitled Eat to Live. Losing 20-plus pounds is a great accomplishment, and Joel Fuhrman, MD, aims to help you do that with his book,  Eat to Live . Eat to Live  isn't just about losing weight without feeling deprived or hungry. It's also about improving your blood pressure, cholesterol, and more. The 6-week plan shows that if you eat foods that are high in nutrients and low in calories, you can eat more and feel fuller for longer. Fuhrman call this a "Nutritarian" diet.   On this plan, you cut down on some carbs (bread, pasta), sugar, and oil. You also quit meat and dairy for at least 6 weeks, and eat more whole fruits, vegetables, beans and other legumes, and whole grains. Can I do this diet - nope - why - let me tell you why This is a very restrictive diet. You will be eating tons of vegetables at most meals, with some fruit, some legumes, and a limited amount of starch at one meal. You will not eat meat,...

Yeah I still stuck.  No answers coming to me - I can do a couple of days but that's it.  And now to top it off I am sad.  An emotion I would love to drown in a gallon of chocolate. Why am I sad - well here go: 1) My foot hurts like a bitch. 2) My son forgot me on Mother's Day - no card, no text - I am not even sure he is alive at this point.  Well, I know he isn't dead, I would think his wife would of call me. 3)  Work is slow and I am afraid I will get laid off. 4) My foot hurts 5) I am still fat as I was when I started this blog. I haven't found peace in my soul, I haven't figured out my personal diet, I just can't seem to put it all together.  I mean I think I look together, and act together - but I am not. So many thing undermine me - the biggest being me.  I can't get the just do it attitude.  I can't seem to say no to salty snacks - they are the apple in the Garden of Eden - I know they are evil but I still give in. Well, i...

So, I promise some pictures of the things I am doing on this new journey into a healthier me.  Today, the sandwich.  I think it is important to start with a good bread.  I love Dave's Killer Bread for that.  If you can't eat an entire loaf in a week this bread freezes really well.  It is great as toast with a little almond butter, but today it's the base for a sandwich.  *Note -I buy the thin sliced for less calories. To make a sandwich filling to the tummy layer!  Layer and layer good healthy stuff on it.   First I started with Salsa, (hot for extra zing) and 1/2 of an avocado sliced. Bread  - 120 calories Avocado - 70 calories *Heathly Fat Salsa - 10 calories   Next a nice meaty slice of tomato and lots of spinach  Tomato - 5 calories Spinach - 5 calories   Let's add protein - today I used and egg. Egg - 72 Calories and TA DA - and big healthy sandwich worth sinking your teeth into. Grand total - ...

Okay - brush my self off and start over for the billionth time. But what is the alternative?  Right - DO IT until I GET IT RIGHT! First two things I am doing - Journaling and drinking my water. This morning I got up with swollen fingers, an indication of too many pretzels with salt yesterday. Last night I listened to the cookies that called my name. Dammit.  Today a little better.  No candy, no pretzels - no snacks.  Woo hoo I had a sandwich at lunch and an orange - a fiber one bar for breakfast - not the healthiest but I am doing my shopping list now and have much healthier alternatives on my list. Tonight I will get my usual Turkey Hoagie at WAWA which I know the calorie count by heart.  Skip the chips - which I love and the candy bar.  (DANG) All I know is the weight is coming on ridiculously fast - faster than I have ever seen.  My weight is going up up up.  STOP the madness - let me off this stupid merry go round. I still ne...

I been listening to Joyce Meyer on my way to work and she was talking about listening to God when he tells you something. Well,  what happened was my weekly health call lady sent me some information and I didn't even bother opening them for days.  Disgusted with myself I guess.   But then I had a nagging voice in my head today- open it - how are you going to help yourself if you don't.   Most of the stuff she sends is good - but this - was great. Entitled - How your Beliefs can Sabotage your Behavior (and what you can do about it) - What - timely right? https://www.huffingtonpost.com/james-clear/how-your-beliefs-can-sabo_b_8760140.html There is the article if you want to read it - the beginning part is the most important to me. If you believe things about yourself like... “It’s hard for me to lose weight.” “I’m not good with numbers.” “I’m not a natural athlete.” “I’m not creative.” “I’m a procrastinator.” It’s pretty clear that...